thought on a friend !

Everyone out there has two faces, one is good and other is bad. It depends on others how they take his activities. Even if a person wants to do something good for society, few will oppose that idea, as they have personal vengeance. Likewise, if a person did something very wrong, there will be few people argue his behavior was right. This applies not only to humans, also to their inventions.

Internet is one of the best innovations of 20^th century. Since its inception worldwide in 1990s, the usage of internet had increased more than 100 times. It premises people can lead a life breathing Internet. That’s how it involved in everyone’s life. Right from morning news to late night texts, Internet became the part of the humans.

Everyone knew, it’s a competitive world. An individual alone can’t stand firm against all the odds. So, a person needs a guide to achieve his goals. Those who don’t have one, found their guide in Internet.  Everything a child wants to learn is available in Internet. After getting graduation, it helps to get a job. For few, it helps to get a life partner. To an extent, it brings out people from their sorrow. When people going abroad, it helps to keep connected with their loved ones and prevent them from home sick. Home sick causes the mental stress, affects a person psychologically and sometimes leads to death. It appeared simple, but saves a life at this point.

All the companies, organisations, educational institutions, hospitals have sophisticated with internet facility. Many people doing online jobs to save their family. If people want to travel or watch their favorite hero’s movie, they need Internet to book tickets. Even organisations, concentrate more on Internet Marketing as it reach maximum number of audiences. Internet is one of the major reasons for the development of the developing nations. People can find the countries with minimum usage of Internet at the under developed nations. From an individual to the entire nation, Internet is needed to upgrade themselves to withstand among their peers.

On the down side, there are people using it for forbidden activities, affecting some serious issues to the world. Immediately, experts start up their debate and argue that Internet is bane and another set of experts defend that. Does these activities were happening only because of Internet? No, they only use Internet as a tool. Even if there is no Internet, still they will find some other tool and execute their plans precisely. Everything can’t be 100% perfect. Similarly, not all the inventions are used by people in right way.

A thief stole precious jewels when there is no electricity. The set of people who blame the thief for their carelessness are normal human being. There will be another set of people, who blame electricity as it helped the thief to steal, no comments for those from me. Internet has always been a boon for the world. It depends only on individual to use the innovations in an optimistic way. If not, then it will turn out to be bane of their life.

Keep Smiling :) God bless :)

Problems ? Smile at it !

 Few days back, while having breakfast with my friend in a hotel, I was able to sense he has some problem. I enquired him,"What happened ? why are you looking dull ?". I'm  making my mind to console him, despite the size of the problem. He said "how could west indies win the world cup, it is our home town, we have to win, right ?" I was mazed with his reply. He continued "West Indies won three world cups dude, it's a record. When are we going to break this record?". I replied "What meant to happen, was happened. England didn't win, thank god for that." He partially agreed with me and continued "it would be great if India had won the cup." I gave him a stare and asked the server to put "Pudhina Chuttney" in his plate, then told him to have as it could help him to digest West Indies victory. While thinking about this later, I had a doubt, was this a problem ?

Certainly, it was ! This would had been the problem for quarter of a billion people.

I started to think which problem makes me to feel difficult. The foremost problem of all yet to be married boys is my problem too. It's hair. You read it right!  H A I R !

I want hair at-least to cover my bald head till my marriage. I have to be look good in the photos to be taken during my marriage. I'll cherish with those photos rest of my life. I  can show my grand children, "See how handsome your grandfather was !". I can have a wig, but whenever I see those photos, somewhere in my heart I'll be in guilt. Now say, my problem is bigger than my friend isn't ?

I have few friends in a list who used to share everything to me. One from the list called me couple of days back. I guessed the reason of the call, but picked it as I was surprised. After a formal talk, slowly he came to the point, the purpose of the call, problem with his girlfriend. He wanted me to give valuable suggestion. I thought to myself, "If I was expert in this I won't be talking with you at this time !"  I told few things what I felt were right. After talking to him, I understood, I can lead my life being bald but not being in love.

This morning I happened to meet my another friend. It's been long time. We talked about our golden days. As the time goes, talk went to our future plans. Once I said mine, he replied "You knew what to do, but I'm not sure where I'm going, it's been a year we completed our education, I'm yet to get a job, unaware of what's waiting for me in life." I was baffled, managed myself to give him few tidbits. I know it won't console him, it's a mere effort from myself to keep my friend in hearts-ease.

When I getting wind to see what world’s facing, don’t want to go too far, for past one month. Starting with notorious, fire accident in Kollam. 100 died and  more than 375 injured in Kollam. Flyover in Kolkata ate 21 and left 60 with bites. While picking up little further, first thing came to my mind is Brussels Attack. Nearly 30 killed and 300 injured. Recent Earthquake at Ecuador, reports saying minimum of 570 died, totally 2,560 people went missing. Suicide attack  in Lahore took the life of 72 including 36 kids and 100 injured.

Just don’t look at the people died, see the family living in their shadow. Have a thought for injured people too. These incidents are much talked, so that I am aware of. Many more would happened and there are chances for few may went unnoticed.

Now analyze, all the things I said and say, are we living in problems ! If you are reading this, you are capable of having internet facility. This itself a great grace.

Love,  job, money is a part of life. If there is some problem in that we can sort out, what if the life itself turns to be a problem. Lets be happy with what we have and give our best to march ahead positively in life.

Keep Smiling :) God bless :)

the 20 minute walk

Life is a game; we don't know what will happen next. We don't have either pause or restart button. Sometimes we feel it will be better to have those options. It help to keeps us away from all burdens, sorrows and be idle. On the other side, it will reduce the thrill we will obtain. But once we resume we have to face those again, can't escape. What we can do is, take some time and figure out what’s happening around us and understand ourselves..

When I started to figure out, I saw a dinosaur like lorry coming in front of me in right side and jam packed town bus coming behind me in other side. I calculated both vehicles gonna pass side by side at a time and I have to move sidelines. When I checked my beside, it’s full of dirt. No other way, I have to put my legs into it and move aside to be in safe zone. None will voluntarily put their leg into dirt. But in this scenario, I have to because I value my life more than my self pride.

By chewing the pile of memories and dozens of advice, started walking to my place. It’s one more hectic day in the middle, as the blind vehicles moving in either side. Being a pedestrian, I know what it would be like while walking in the peak hours. In the last two months, I had witnessed nearly 4-5 accidents in the same road, between the time 6 - 7 pm. Most of the accidents happen because of carelessness than speed, as we failed to read what our peers having in their mind. Has anything more important in this world than our life, our beloved one’s happiness?

Both vehicles passed each other and I took  back my leg out of the dirt and balanced myself.  Moved further and went to the petty shop run by Indians from north side, bought 10 Rs coke in cup and resume walking back to room by drinking it sip by sip.

Some part of me feels that the best mind game in life is driving. We won't have any clue about who comes in opposite side neither the person coming behind you nor the person going in front of you. We have to read their minds, including the people walking along the road, sometime even dog’s. Similarly in life, we have to understand what other wants. We simply can't move forward putting other's view behind. As dogs in streets, sometimes it's hard to know what they are thinking, what they want, why they are behaving like this. Sometimes they will make us to feel, we are wrong. To move ahead, we have no other choice. Be patient with those dogs.

Driving is in same frequency with the life. While overtaking a vehicle, we have to read the mind of drivers who’s riding in front of you and also the driver who’s coming from other side. If we don’t want them to overtake us, they have to come behind. When they try to beat us, mostly it would end with an accident. During those rides, we don’t know who’s coming behind us. Mostly we will make a way for them and ensure their safety by signalling them to go ahead. If we can be this good to the third person, why can’t we be like this to the known face. Some may argue if we didn’t give them a way, it’ll affect us or cause significant problems. Whatever may be the reason, we are doing this for ourself.

If a person going in front of us is taking right turn, we have to wait till he completes it. If we are moving ahead without stopping for a second, damages may occur to vehicles results in waste of money, quarrels may happen with other person, chances for injury, to the maximum it may lead us to criminal cases. People with brain won't prefer these, they wait for the other person to take his turn. People with this temperament there, won't be patience enough if someone comes in their way. They will express their mind out. This won't lose us money, get any injuries. We won't give a mind to hurt others. It's not fair.

Think about the scenario, we have to go certain place however we don't have vehicle to go. By asking lift we will manage to reach the destination. If the owner of the vehicle got important work in between, he/she has no other way, drop us in the middle of the road and he/she will carry on with his/her work. We can't argue with that man,"You gave your word, so you have to drop me at my place." That's his vehicle, he has every right to pick and drop anyone anywhere at anytime. If that person is who consider their commitment as first than their work, what more to say, we will reach your destination happily. It's a rare case.

Equally in life, we won't find people accompany us all the time. When they get some thing important than us, they will go. It's their life and I feel we don't have any rights to question about their decision in their life. If you are a person who's committed to your word and expect others to be like that, you are the wrong one, dude. Change your mindset, right now!

In the meantime, reached near my room. Before entering the room, shot the crushed coke cup in the dustbin kept outside and my disturbed thoughts.

This twenty minute walk made me to understand what I haven’t for past twenty years. It’s always easy to preach and follow those initially but taking those all through your life needs a sage life. It’ll definitely change whom we are in a better path. While trailing this way, you may feel this as being absurd.

In short, have all the fun and be crazy with keeping one thing in mind, you alone can't be the reason for your happiness. Give a try, it’s valuable.

Keep Smiling :) God bless :) 

last 120 days

When we enter new zone in our life, it will take some time to adjust. I took extra time to make myself comfortable. Generally, I'll do more mistakes and try to learn from few of them. In these four months I learnt many things despite doing few mistakes. I always want to write something and post in my blog. But I saw few things as constraints which are actually not, stopped me from writing.

Hope most of them knew that I got a job in my college as a Soft Skills Trainer. Joined June 1. Initially I felt embarrassed to face my professors in my college itself. As time goes, all went well. On June 10, I took my first session to Final Year MCA students who are elder to me. I was thrilled previous day and prepared a lot. After facing those students I was spell bounded and blabbered the things which I didn't prepare. At the end of the class, I had a feedback that I'm good and need to improve in minor things. Behavior of the students vary from each class, so I too. If students are not aware of important of placements, I'll try to make them understand its importance. Even knowing its importance and value, when students don't want to listen, I won’t force them. I even hate to scold students, when I do even I can't stop laughing by thinking the shape of my face. But we can't be just a stone in all situations.

Next to my farewell evening, the most important day in my college life is Teachers Day which I organised with my friends in Sep 5 2014. This year students wished me for Teachers day. Participated in the function as a spectator. It may not be sound that great, but I was really happy and proud. Though my contribution was very small, some students who got placed in TCS, Wipro came to thank me. This is the biggest achievement, I ever achieved. Things like this motivates me and from every class to class, I try to improve myself.

Personally these four months, not that great. Met with minor accident, health issues, getting tired often, misunderstandings. Above everything it hurts when our best friend avoids you. Avoiding us may be right from his perception, but we really miss him. One thing I wanna say, never miss your friends for any reason, especially due to complex. I try my best to be in touch with you guys. Surely, we all will reach good position in life. Friends are not life, we need them to live our life. When it comes to profession, I enjoyed these 120 days. Also, I'm blessed to have understanding and friendly colleagues.

Being a half-baked writer, I felt like flying when my friends asked why you are not writing these days, few of them suggested me to write about political issues, corruption, bribe, problems facing by our nation. I don't know whether they are kidding or not, but I'm really motivated when they said "You should write continuously". One of my friend went a step ahead and said he wish to write a story with me. If all goes well, I'll start posting a story in my blog episode wise. I wish this to happen soon.

Keep smiling :) Stay blessed :)

S for Sachin

There’s a proverb saying human heart is like monkey, it wanders all around. Everyone in their childhood likes something or someone due to some attraction. As the life moves on, their mentality changes and their likings too. I have one question to ask many people, if we really admired a person, how we could change our likings unless that person having any negatives. When we find one person better than another and if we goes after the better, aren't we called by some other name. Many will disagree with me, but I wasn't kind of person having an alternative, when the person I admired failed to impress.

Children always like a person who has larger than life image. During my childhood days, there were two heroes with larger than life image. One was Shaktimaan, our celluloid Superhero and the next one “is” Sachin Tendulkar. I prefer “is”, because he’s still having that image. How my diary gets completed without having pages about my hero. There are millions of articles about Sachin in internet and many blogs and I have read many of them. After reading those, I craved for many days to write about Sachin. Finally, I had one in my name.

Despite saying about his achievements (it’s impossible to narrate in one article), I sketched to describe his presence in my life.

When I awkwardly copied Sachin

Rewinding 16 years back, I had my first memory on Sachin, it was during India vs Pakistan, Sachin was bowled out by Wasim Akram and my dad turned off TV. Even in 2003 World cup final, when Sachin got out in first over, my dad switched off TV. I didn't watch rest of the match. As my father is an ardent follower of cricket, it’s not a surprise. My mother doesn't know about cricket, but whenever I seek her permission to watch cricket she would tell me to turn off TV after Sachin got out. This was the habit in my home, till I took some control over remote. I am addicted to boost, I guess you all know the reason. Till Now, I won't drink coffee or tea, unless I was forced by relatives when I visit their home. Whenever Sachin scored century, next day morning I used to buy all newspapers and cut his picture and stick in the notebooks. In my school, majority of them were Sachin fans, we'll fight for the tag “Sachin Tendulkar”. Most of them would say “I’m Sachin of our class”. Me and my best friend too fight for the tag, to put an end to this fight, we decided from that day I will be called as Sachin and he will be called as Tendulkar. That’s the impact his NAME had created. When I put any fight with my dad, I won't talk to him, though he tried to console me.  If we had fight during match days, he will come and ask me “What’s Sachin Score?”, I can't resist myself, I would narrate how Sachin got out, what are shots Sachin Played with actions. Even now when I think of those times, I can't control my smile. I earned many friends because of Sachin and whoever may be, I never hesitate to fight for Sachin. Sachin doesn't know about my existence. But, his presence gave many things to me. I got my precious and he's one of the reason for that.

sachin book collection

With his magic spells and outstanding fielding, he had won many matches for India. When opponent players built up a frustrating partnerships, Ganguly would give the ball to Sachin and the magician spin the ball to turn the match in our way. His sharp direct hits and stunning catches needs no mention. More than a cricketer, he’s one of the best human being. Anyone can take him as a role model. For children who have bigger aim in life, irrespective of the field, he’s the best example. At the tender age of 16, he demolished the best bowling attack of that time. For boys who wants to succeed in love, he made the girl seven years older than him, to love him. For youths, who wants to keep their family in good position, at that age he kept the trust of the whole nation. For married men, he set the example of how to love a family, despite busy schedule. For politicians, he adopted the village Puttamraju Kandriga in Andhra and made it a well-developed village with good infrastructure. Last but not the least, he respects his parents, that’s why he’s at place, where no one can touch his shadow.

google it and find GOD

I won't say he is the talented cricketer of his generation, because I had witnessed many players with great talent than him. Some people from pakistan hailed Afridi as god, some from sri lanka hails Sangakkara as god, some people following football saying messi as their god. Not to forgot, Sachin is the first sportsman to called as God, he started this legacy. But what he had and others lacked is the Almighty's Grace, that's the reason he achieved this God Status and some other may say that as a luck. Whatever maybe, he is always one step ahead of the rest.

At each stage of our life, we will have one goal/wish. In my childhood, I wished to be cricketer, few years later I wished to be a collector, and now I wish to be an eminent writer. One wish that remains constant as my love towards Sachin is to meet him before my lifetime. I may meet him when I go to heaven, but there I can't take photos and upload it in fb and keep that picture as my DP, who knows when Zuckerberg goes to heaven, he may develop one as fb in there too ;). Jokes apart, one day definitely I'll meet Sachin and will take photo with him and preserve that rest of my life.

Always a proud Sachinist.

Keep Smiling :) Stay blessed :)

My Hostel Life

Upcoming days will be the hardest for engineering students who started their UG in 2011. Pursuing engineering itself a hardest thing but I would say after completing the final exams, leaving college and vacating the hostel, is the most hardest and it will create a vacuum in your heart.

Many of my friends told me that they didn’t had best moments in college and it won't come like school life. I too agree, nothing can be like school life and school friends. But, when it comes to enjoyment & immeasurable happiness I would certainly go with Hostel Life. Except food, you can’t find any faults here. Nothing can be 100 percent perfect.

Thought to say many things about Hostel life and prepared a list in a sequence. Mean time heard an audio of “Araverkaadu by Prabakaran Natraj”, in his own style he described hostel life beautifully. I recommend all hostellates to hear the audio

( Audio Download link: https://ec-media.sndcdn.com/uXvbhLEf76cP.128.mp3?f10880d39085a94a0418a7ef69b03d522cd6dfee9399eeb9a522029c6afbb938b0f053f59c915af1755f36d2914604bc048a4b7246aae08b161b3adefdb8b19ce170558846 ). Worth hearing !

My First Year Room

I don't want to sound like a broken tape. So, I just wish to confess about my hostel life. Everyone out there knows about me, they can find out whether am lying or not.

Old Hostel Mess

My first year in hostel is the best. Had best roommates and environment. Due to my faults, I missed them and will feel for it ever (stopped eating chips for few days after that incident). In second year, new hostel, new roommates, new environment but I didn’t had my cup of tea there. I don't know whether mistakes are mine or not, it happened. I know I had hurt many of them, at those times I was left with no other option than vengeance. Though I want to mention few things particularly, my heart says me to do reverse, just to avoid controversies. That’s the point in my life, I started to analyse myself and managed to right most of my faults. It’s precious for me, I had learnt many things, it changed me and helped to shed my “angry young man“ tag. Thanks to all faults, done by me and others, that helped me to transform as a better person. If someone patted on my back for acting like matured, full credits goes to my hostel life. Then comes the final year, felt like a Lion in its den. We can have two kind of happiness. One is enjoying by ourselves. Second one is by seeing others enjoyment. Most of the times, I prefer second one due to certain principles I’m following. Believe it or not, damn happily lived.

We can cherish on our happy moments for long period, but  some moments needs to be settled down sooner and shouldn't carry with us long time. These things doesn't mean that, I wasn't enjoying my hostel life. Even the most happiest person in the world will also had some patches of sadness in his life. Instead of telling, we did that, we went there, blah blah blah.. i felt telling how hostel life changed me will be a great compliment for the time I spent in hostel.

If the place which is filled with happiness and full of angels to make us happy is said as heaven, then I will say I lived in heaven for four years. Initially, I said I don't wanna sound like a broken tape by repeating the same things, but I failed, only thing coming in my mind is "will miss my hostel life to the core", it's really hard to get some words. 

Doesn't know how to conclude, definitely will pray for all you guys to reach greater heights in life.

Keep Smiling :) Stay Blessed :)

Tear Filled Eyes

Thought it'll be just another day in my diary. But, it turned out to be the most memorable day for all of us. It’s around 3 pm after completing all our works, I have been asked to initiate the proceedings. I don't know what to talk. Simply stood in front of my class. After gathering some words, started talking. Slowly got a bit emotional, tears filled my eyes. As I don't wanna cry in front everyone, stopped my speech in couple of minutes after proposing the idea of having get together at least once in a year. Once I got down, one after another occupied the stage and talked about their college life and friends circle.

I slowly started to think about how I started my college life. After completing the inauguration function, my parents left me in hostel and I was standing with tear filled eyes and waving them see you. From day one to last working day, we have shown college what we are capable of, made everyone jealous of RIOGA’12 and I don't wish to talk about what happened in next years. Went to every problem, without knowing what the problem was, only to show our unity. Fast mode walk to protect ID card, ecampus, attendance, quadrangle sights, our KG Force, security whistles, camera threats, aptitude training, record works, placements, projects and many more. Side by side, everything passed like a flash, while hearing my friends’ speech.

Some of them moved and melted me specially Niranjan, Deepak, Jairam, they spoke their heart out, Kuralarasun too. Not only with Kural, I promise that surely I’ll will be in touch with all of you and disturb you guys by sending my blog post links and will torture to read it. Have to mention one thing here, if someone says my writing is good, the whole credit goes to my school friends. Except my sister, no one knows in my family about my capability of writing blogs, stories, and verses. Without my friends, I’m just of mirage of myself. So guys, if I goes next level, your role will play a major part in it.

My college life won’t get over if I didn't mention three of them. Firstly Mech B boys, for their continuous love and support, though I was not with them for past three years. Next, my class advisors, teaching and non-teaching staffs, lab technicians. There may be some misunderstanding between us, but we can’t ignore the fact that they supported us in one way or another. Finally, wanna say a big thanks to my team “Team Beyond” for their love from day one to till now. Will miss you all.

Simply in two lines, “My college life started with tear filled eyes for missing my family and ended with the same tear filled eyes by thinking of missing you all”

Till now, I shared something about my college life and there is one more world, where I enjoyed thoroughly and emotionally attached. May be some of them didn't enjoy their college life, but I can proudly say each and every one had their best days here. That’s our Hostel Life. Will come with fresh post about my Hostel Life Experience.

I have attached the link of the song named “Vaada nanba” made by my friends. Please do hear it and support us. Finally, I wish to thank Arun Prassana Raja for his memorable work and Christopher Charles for making the evening so special. Miss you all, seems like ordinary word to express. Anyhow I have to say, “Miss you ALL buddies”.

Audio Link: https://soundcloud.com/naveen-parasuram-1/engo-irunthu-ingae-vanthomae

Keep Smiling :) Stay blessed :)

Me Too a Virtuous Villain

Thought to write some interesting things, but ended with something personal. Asked some of my friends, whether to post this or not, as it goes emotional. Couple of them enquired about  my condition and then, there's is one person, who didn't care about the content and just appreciated for portraying what I thought/felt in a clear manner. That gave me a gut to post this and if I you felt I had wasted your time, early apologizes.One more reason for publishing this blog is during my 80's, it will be funny to recollect how I was in my early 20’s.

Don’t know what happened, for past few days I'm feeling like sinking. It’s never too late to find me back, but to find, the price I have to pay may be something large. If I tried I can live without those things, but not myself. Also am not that mad to lose something equally important and get myself back. During these sort of situations, I wish to have a time machine, to place myself one year back. Just bewildered. Last time, I wished to have time machine for writing my 12^th exams once again.

Everyone knows am a short temper, only when they tease my favourites. But now a days, getting anger, irritated, behaving like childish for silly reasons. Childish may not be the apt word, but I don't know, how to portray me in best possible way. Thinking of unnecessary things and getting worry over those issues, weren't in my diary. However I'm getting used to that. It’s not that am I won't lie. I too but only to prank my friends. On other issues, I never play or lie to anyone, since it may hurt their feelings. Now a days, lying to my close ones becomes a habit, for my beneficiary so that they won’t get disappointed.

When I rewind, the people would say some nice qualities defines me. I can feel that am losing those one by one. Staring at mirror and seeing how I have transformed, is worse and acting to others like being normal, is far worse. While some of them thinking me as benevolent, the truth is just opposite. I didn't say I am that much bad, fearing that I may change. Those were the days, where my friends come with their problems, ask my suggestions to overcome it. But these days, I stand solitary by losing my way.

While thinking about all my negatives, at somewhere, at some corner, realized at least I can identify my flaws, feeling shame on myself, and thinking how it will affect others. There are some others, who doesn’t even bother a penny on others. Also there are people, who are far better and living like a Buddha/Jesus/Teresa even these days. It’s a human tendency to look upon people who are imperfect, when we are not that Perfect. It's not am the only one going through this phase, I expressed and others didn't.

Finally, I consoled myself, “Don't worry Parasu, a part of you is still good. You will find a way to get rid of these things and discover yourself back”

Title Courtesy: Kamal Haasan Sir. (Virtuous Villain - Uthama Villain)

Only line came to my mind while writing " Neenga nallavara ?, ila kettavara ?"

Keep Smiling :) Try to be true to everyone :)