Showing posts with label Emotional. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Emotional. Show all posts

Friday, 4 March 2016

the 20 minute walk

Life is a game; we don't know what will happen next. We don't have either pause or restart button. Sometimes we feel it will be better to have those options. It help to keeps us away from all burdens, sorrows and be idle. On the other side, it will reduce the thrill we will obtain. But once we resume we have to face those again, can't escape. What we can do is, take some time and figure out what’s happening around us and understand ourselves..

When I started to figure out, I saw a dinosaur like lorry coming in front of me in right side and jam packed town bus coming behind me in other side. I calculated both vehicles gonna pass side by side at a time and I have to move sidelines. When I checked my beside, it’s full of dirt. No other way, I have to put my legs into it and move aside to be in safe zone. None will voluntarily put their leg into dirt. But in this scenario, I have to because I value my life more than my self pride.

By chewing the pile of memories and dozens of advice, started walking to my place. It’s one more hectic day in the middle, as the blind vehicles moving in either side. Being a pedestrian, I know what it would be like while walking in the peak hours. In the last two months, I had witnessed nearly 4-5 accidents in the same road, between the time 6 - 7 pm. Most of the accidents happen because of carelessness than speed, as we failed to read what our peers having in their mind. Has anything more important in this world than our life, our beloved one’s happiness?

Both vehicles passed each other and I took  back my leg out of the dirt and balanced myself.  Moved further and went to the petty shop run by Indians from north side, bought 10 Rs coke in cup and resume walking back to room by drinking it sip by sip.

Some part of me feels that the best mind game in life is driving. We won't have any clue about who comes in opposite side neither the person coming behind you nor the person going in front of you. We have to read their minds, including the people walking along the road, sometime even dog’s. Similarly in life, we have to understand what other wants. We simply can't move forward putting other's view behind. As dogs in streets, sometimes it's hard to know what they are thinking, what they want, why they are behaving like this. Sometimes they will make us to feel, we are wrong. To move ahead, we have no other choice. Be patient with those dogs.

Driving is in same frequency with the life. While overtaking a vehicle, we have to read the mind of drivers who’s riding in front of you and also the driver who’s coming from other side. If we don’t want them to overtake us, they have to come behind. When they try to beat us, mostly it would end with an accident. During those rides, we don’t know who’s coming behind us. Mostly we will make a way for them and ensure their safety by signalling them to go ahead. If we can be this good to the third person, why can’t we be like this to the known face. Some may argue if we didn’t give them a way, it’ll affect us or cause significant problems. Whatever may be the reason, we are doing this for ourself.

If a person going in front of us is taking right turn, we have to wait till he completes it. If we are moving ahead without stopping for a second, damages may occur to vehicles results in waste of money, quarrels may happen with other person, chances for injury, to the maximum it may lead us to criminal cases. People with brain won't prefer these, they wait for the other person to take his turn. People with this temperament there, won't be patience enough if someone comes in their way. They will express their mind out. This won't lose us money, get any injuries. We won't give a mind to hurt others. It's not fair.

Think about the scenario, we have to go certain place however we don't have vehicle to go. By asking lift we will manage to reach the destination. If the owner of the vehicle got important work in between, he/she has no other way, drop us in the middle of the road and he/she will carry on with his/her work. We can't argue with that man,"You gave your word, so you have to drop me at my place." That's his vehicle, he has every right to pick and drop anyone anywhere at anytime. If that person is who consider their commitment as first than their work, what more to say, we will reach your destination happily. It's a rare case.

Equally in life, we won't find people accompany us all the time. When they get some thing important than us, they will go. It's their life and I feel we don't have any rights to question about their decision in their life. If you are a person who's committed to your word and expect others to be like that, you are the wrong one, dude. Change your mindset, right now!

In the meantime, reached near my room. Before entering the room, shot the crushed coke cup in the dustbin kept outside and my disturbed thoughts.

This twenty minute walk made me to understand what I haven’t for past twenty years. It’s always easy to preach and follow those initially but taking those all through your life needs a sage life. It’ll definitely change whom we are in a better path. While trailing this way, you may feel this as being absurd.

In short, have all the fun and be crazy with keeping one thing in mind, you alone can't be the reason for your happiness. Give a try, it’s valuable.

Keep Smiling :) God bless :) 

Saturday, 2 May 2015

My Hostel Life

Upcoming days will be the hardest for engineering students who started their UG in 2011. Pursuing engineering itself a hardest thing but I would say after completing the final exams, leaving college and vacating the hostel, is the most hardest and it will create a vacuum in your heart.

Many of my friends told me that they didn’t had best moments in college and it won't come like school life. I too agree, nothing can be like school life and school friends. But, when it comes to enjoyment & immeasurable happiness I would certainly go with Hostel Life. Except food, you can’t find any faults here. Nothing can be 100 percent perfect.

Thought to say many things about Hostel life and prepared a list in a sequence. Mean time heard an audio of “Araverkaadu by Prabakaran Natraj”, in his own style he described hostel life beautifully. I recommend all hostellates to hear the audio

My First Year Room
I don't want to sound like a broken tape. So, I just wish to confess about my hostel life. Everyone out there knows about me, they can find out whether am lying or not.

Old Hostel Mess
My first year in hostel is the best. Had best roommates and environment. Due to my faults, I missed them and will feel for it ever (stopped eating chips for few days after that incident). In second year, new hostel, new roommates, new environment but I didn’t had my cup of tea there. I don't know whether mistakes are mine or not, it happened. I know I had hurt many of them, at those times I was left with no other option than vengeance. Though I want to mention few things particularly, my heart says me to do reverse, just to avoid controversies. That’s the point in my life, I started to analyse myself and managed to right most of my faults. It’s precious for me, I had learnt many things, it changed me and helped to shed my “angry young man“ tag. Thanks to all faults, done by me and others, that helped me to transform as a better person. If someone patted on my back for acting like matured, full credits goes to my hostel life. Then comes the final year, felt like a Lion in its den. We can have two kind of happiness. One is enjoying by ourselves. Second one is by seeing others enjoyment. Most of the times, I prefer second one due to certain principles I’m following. Believe it or not, damn happily lived.

We can cherish on our happy moments for long period, but  some moments needs to be settled down sooner and shouldn't carry with us long time. These things doesn't mean that, I wasn't enjoying my hostel life. Even the most happiest person in the world will also had some patches of sadness in his life. Instead of telling, we did that, we went there, blah blah blah.. i felt telling how hostel life changed me will be a great compliment for the time I spent in hostel.

If the place which is filled with happiness and full of angels to make us happy is said as heaven, then I will say I lived in heaven for four years. Initially, I said I don't wanna sound like a broken tape by repeating the same things, but I failed, only thing coming in my mind is "will miss my hostel life to the core", it's really hard to get some words. 
Doesn't know how to conclude, definitely will pray for all you guys to reach greater heights in life.

Keep Smiling :) Stay Blessed :)

Sunday, 12 April 2015

Tear Filled Eyes

Thought it'll be just another day in my diary. But, it turned out to be the most memorable day for all of us. It’s around 3 pm after completing all our works, I have been asked to initiate the proceedings. I don't know what to talk. Simply stood in front of my class. After gathering some words, started talking. Slowly got a bit emotional, tears filled my eyes. As I don't wanna cry in front everyone, stopped my speech in couple of minutes after proposing the idea of having get together at least once in a year. Once I got down, one after another occupied the stage and talked about their college life and friends circle.

I slowly started to think about how I started my college life. After completing the inauguration function, my parents left me in hostel and I was standing with tear filled eyes and waving them see you. From day one to last working day, we have shown college what we are capable of, made everyone jealous of RIOGA’12 and I don't wish to talk about what happened in next years. Went to every problem, without knowing what the problem was, only to show our unity. Fast mode walk to protect ID card, ecampus, attendance, quadrangle sights, our KG Force, security whistles, camera threats, aptitude training, record works, placements, projects and many more. Side by side, everything passed like a flash, while hearing my friends’ speech.

Some of them moved and melted me specially Niranjan, Deepak, Jairam, they spoke their heart out, Kuralarasun too. Not only with Kural, I promise that surely I’ll will be in touch with all of you and disturb you guys by sending my blog post links and will torture to read it. Have to mention one thing here, if someone says my writing is good, the whole credit goes to my school friends. Except my sister, no one knows in my family about my capability of writing blogs, stories, and verses. Without my friends, I’m just of mirage of myself. So guys, if I goes next level, your role will play a major part in it.

My college life won’t get over if I didn't mention three of them. Firstly Mech B boys, for their continuous love and support, though I was not with them for past three years. Next, my class advisors, teaching and non-teaching staffs, lab technicians. There may be some misunderstanding between us, but we can’t ignore the fact that they supported us in one way or another. Finally, wanna say a big thanks to my team “Team Beyond” for their love from day one to till now. Will miss you all.

Simply in two lines, “My college life started with tear filled eyes for missing my family and ended with the same tear filled eyes by thinking of missing you all”

Till now, I shared something about my college life and there is one more world, where I enjoyed thoroughly and emotionally attached. May be some of them didn't enjoy their college life, but I can proudly say each and every one had their best days here. That’s our Hostel Life. Will come with fresh post about my Hostel Life Experience.

I have attached the link of the song named “Vaada nanba” made by my friends. Please do hear it and support us. Finally, I wish to thank Arun Prassana Raja for his memorable work and Christopher Charles for making the evening so special. Miss you all, seems like ordinary word to express. Anyhow I have to say, “Miss you ALL buddies”.

Audio Link: https://soundcloud.com/naveen-parasuram-1/engo-irunthu-ingae-vanthomae













Keep Smiling :) Stay blessed :)

Sunday, 5 April 2015

Me Too a Virtuous Villain

Thought to write some interesting things, but ended with something personal. Asked some of my friends, whether to post this or not, as it goes emotional. Couple of them enquired about  my condition and then, there's is one person, who didn't care about the content and just appreciated for portraying what I thought/felt in a clear manner. That gave me a gut to post this and if I you felt I had wasted your time, early apologizes.One more reason for publishing this blog is during my 80's, it will be funny to recollect how I was in my early 20’s.

Don’t know what happened, for past few days I'm feeling like sinking. It’s never too late to find me back, but to find, the price I have to pay may be something large. If I tried I can live without those things, but not myself. Also am not that mad to lose something equally important and get myself back. During these sort of situations, I wish to have a time machine, to place myself one year back. Just bewildered. Last time, I wished to have time machine for writing my 12th exams once again.

Everyone knows am a short temper, only when they tease my favourites. But now a days, getting anger, irritated, behaving like childish for silly reasons. Childish may not be the apt word, but I don't know, how to portray me in best possible way. Thinking of unnecessary things and getting worry over those issues, weren't in my diary. However I'm getting used to that. It’s not that am I won't lie. I too but only to prank my friends. On other issues, I never play or lie to anyone, since it may hurt their feelings. Now a days, lying to my close ones becomes a habit, for my beneficiary so that they won’t get disappointed.

When I rewind, the people would say some nice qualities defines me. I can feel that am losing those one by one. Staring at mirror and seeing how I have transformed, is worse and acting to others like being normal, is far worse. While some of them thinking me as benevolent, the truth is just opposite. I didn't say I am that much bad, fearing that I may change. Those were the days, where my friends come with their problems, ask my suggestions to overcome it. But these days, I stand solitary by losing my way.

While thinking about all my negatives, at somewhere, at some corner, realized at least I can identify my flaws, feeling shame on myself, and thinking how it will affect others. There are some others, who doesn’t even bother a penny on others. Also there are people, who are far better and living like a Buddha/Jesus/Teresa even these days. It’s a human tendency to look upon people who are imperfect, when we are not that Perfect. It's not am the only one going through this phase, I expressed and others didn't.

Finally, I consoled myself, “Don't worry Parasu, a part of you is still good. You will find a way to get rid of these things and discover yourself back”

Title Courtesy: Kamal Haasan Sir. (Virtuous Villain - Uthama Villain)
Only line came to my mind while writing " Neenga nallavara ?, ila kettavara ?"


Keep Smiling :) Try to be true to everyone :)