Tear Filled Eyes

Thought it'll be just another day in my diary. But, it turned out to be the most memorable day for all of us. It’s around 3 pm after completing all our works, I have been asked to initiate the proceedings. I don't know what to talk. Simply stood in front of my class. After gathering some words, started talking. Slowly got a bit emotional, tears filled my eyes. As I don't wanna cry in front everyone, stopped my speech in couple of minutes after proposing the idea of having get together at least once in a year. Once I got down, one after another occupied the stage and talked about their college life and friends circle.

I slowly started to think about how I started my college life. After completing the inauguration function, my parents left me in hostel and I was standing with tear filled eyes and waving them see you. From day one to last working day, we have shown college what we are capable of, made everyone jealous of RIOGA’12 and I don't wish to talk about what happened in next years. Went to every problem, without knowing what the problem was, only to show our unity. Fast mode walk to protect ID card, ecampus, attendance, quadrangle sights, our KG Force, security whistles, camera threats, aptitude training, record works, placements, projects and many more. Side by side, everything passed like a flash, while hearing my friends’ speech.

Some of them moved and melted me specially Niranjan, Deepak, Jairam, they spoke their heart out, Kuralarasun too. Not only with Kural, I promise that surely I’ll will be in touch with all of you and disturb you guys by sending my blog post links and will torture to read it. Have to mention one thing here, if someone says my writing is good, the whole credit goes to my school friends. Except my sister, no one knows in my family about my capability of writing blogs, stories, and verses. Without my friends, I’m just of mirage of myself. So guys, if I goes next level, your role will play a major part in it.

My college life won’t get over if I didn't mention three of them. Firstly Mech B boys, for their continuous love and support, though I was not with them for past three years. Next, my class advisors, teaching and non-teaching staffs, lab technicians. There may be some misunderstanding between us, but we can’t ignore the fact that they supported us in one way or another. Finally, wanna say a big thanks to my team “Team Beyond” for their love from day one to till now. Will miss you all.

Simply in two lines, “My college life started with tear filled eyes for missing my family and ended with the same tear filled eyes by thinking of missing you all”

Till now, I shared something about my college life and there is one more world, where I enjoyed thoroughly and emotionally attached. May be some of them didn't enjoy their college life, but I can proudly say each and every one had their best days here. That’s our Hostel Life. Will come with fresh post about my Hostel Life Experience.

I have attached the link of the song named “Vaada nanba” made by my friends. Please do hear it and support us. Finally, I wish to thank Arun Prassana Raja for his memorable work and Christopher Charles for making the evening so special. Miss you all, seems like ordinary word to express. Anyhow I have to say, “Miss you ALL buddies”.

Audio Link: https://soundcloud.com/naveen-parasuram-1/engo-irunthu-ingae-vanthomae

Keep Smiling :) Stay blessed :)

Me Too a Virtuous Villain

Thought to write some interesting things, but ended with something personal. Asked some of my friends, whether to post this or not, as it goes emotional. Couple of them enquired about  my condition and then, there's is one person, who didn't care about the content and just appreciated for portraying what I thought/felt in a clear manner. That gave me a gut to post this and if I you felt I had wasted your time, early apologizes.One more reason for publishing this blog is during my 80's, it will be funny to recollect how I was in my early 20’s.

Don’t know what happened, for past few days I'm feeling like sinking. It’s never too late to find me back, but to find, the price I have to pay may be something large. If I tried I can live without those things, but not myself. Also am not that mad to lose something equally important and get myself back. During these sort of situations, I wish to have a time machine, to place myself one year back. Just bewildered. Last time, I wished to have time machine for writing my 12^th exams once again.

Everyone knows am a short temper, only when they tease my favourites. But now a days, getting anger, irritated, behaving like childish for silly reasons. Childish may not be the apt word, but I don't know, how to portray me in best possible way. Thinking of unnecessary things and getting worry over those issues, weren't in my diary. However I'm getting used to that. It’s not that am I won't lie. I too but only to prank my friends. On other issues, I never play or lie to anyone, since it may hurt their feelings. Now a days, lying to my close ones becomes a habit, for my beneficiary so that they won’t get disappointed.

When I rewind, the people would say some nice qualities defines me. I can feel that am losing those one by one. Staring at mirror and seeing how I have transformed, is worse and acting to others like being normal, is far worse. While some of them thinking me as benevolent, the truth is just opposite. I didn't say I am that much bad, fearing that I may change. Those were the days, where my friends come with their problems, ask my suggestions to overcome it. But these days, I stand solitary by losing my way.

While thinking about all my negatives, at somewhere, at some corner, realized at least I can identify my flaws, feeling shame on myself, and thinking how it will affect others. There are some others, who doesn’t even bother a penny on others. Also there are people, who are far better and living like a Buddha/Jesus/Teresa even these days. It’s a human tendency to look upon people who are imperfect, when we are not that Perfect. It's not am the only one going through this phase, I expressed and others didn't.

Finally, I consoled myself, “Don't worry Parasu, a part of you is still good. You will find a way to get rid of these things and discover yourself back”

Title Courtesy: Kamal Haasan Sir. (Virtuous Villain - Uthama Villain)

Only line came to my mind while writing " Neenga nallavara ?, ila kettavara ?"

Keep Smiling :) Try to be true to everyone :)