last 120 days

When we enter new zone in our life, it will take some time to adjust. I took extra time to make myself comfortable. Generally, I'll do more mistakes and try to learn from few of them. In these four months I learnt many things despite doing few mistakes. I always want to write something and post in my blog. But I saw few things as constraints which are actually not, stopped me from writing.

Hope most of them knew that I got a job in my college as a Soft Skills Trainer. Joined June 1. Initially I felt embarrassed to face my professors in my college itself. As time goes, all went well. On June 10, I took my first session to Final Year MCA students who are elder to me. I was thrilled previous day and prepared a lot. After facing those students I was spell bounded and blabbered the things which I didn't prepare. At the end of the class, I had a feedback that I'm good and need to improve in minor things. Behavior of the students vary from each class, so I too. If students are not aware of important of placements, I'll try to make them understand its importance. Even knowing its importance and value, when students don't want to listen, I won’t force them. I even hate to scold students, when I do even I can't stop laughing by thinking the shape of my face. But we can't be just a stone in all situations.

Next to my farewell evening, the most important day in my college life is Teachers Day which I organised with my friends in Sep 5 2014. This year students wished me for Teachers day. Participated in the function as a spectator. It may not be sound that great, but I was really happy and proud. Though my contribution was very small, some students who got placed in TCS, Wipro came to thank me. This is the biggest achievement, I ever achieved. Things like this motivates me and from every class to class, I try to improve myself.

Personally these four months, not that great. Met with minor accident, health issues, getting tired often, misunderstandings. Above everything it hurts when our best friend avoids you. Avoiding us may be right from his perception, but we really miss him. One thing I wanna say, never miss your friends for any reason, especially due to complex. I try my best to be in touch with you guys. Surely, we all will reach good position in life. Friends are not life, we need them to live our life. When it comes to profession, I enjoyed these 120 days. Also, I'm blessed to have understanding and friendly colleagues.

Being a half-baked writer, I felt like flying when my friends asked why you are not writing these days, few of them suggested me to write about political issues, corruption, bribe, problems facing by our nation. I don't know whether they are kidding or not, but I'm really motivated when they said "You should write continuously". One of my friend went a step ahead and said he wish to write a story with me. If all goes well, I'll start posting a story in my blog episode wise. I wish this to happen soon.

Keep smiling :) Stay blessed :)

S for Sachin

There’s a proverb saying human heart is like monkey, it wanders all around. Everyone in their childhood likes something or someone due to some attraction. As the life moves on, their mentality changes and their likings too. I have one question to ask many people, if we really admired a person, how we could change our likings unless that person having any negatives. When we find one person better than another and if we goes after the better, aren't we called by some other name. Many will disagree with me, but I wasn't kind of person having an alternative, when the person I admired failed to impress.

Children always like a person who has larger than life image. During my childhood days, there were two heroes with larger than life image. One was Shaktimaan, our celluloid Superhero and the next one “is” Sachin Tendulkar. I prefer “is”, because he’s still having that image. How my diary gets completed without having pages about my hero. There are millions of articles about Sachin in internet and many blogs and I have read many of them. After reading those, I craved for many days to write about Sachin. Finally, I had one in my name.

Despite saying about his achievements (it’s impossible to narrate in one article), I sketched to describe his presence in my life.

When I awkwardly copied Sachin

Rewinding 16 years back, I had my first memory on Sachin, it was during India vs Pakistan, Sachin was bowled out by Wasim Akram and my dad turned off TV. Even in 2003 World cup final, when Sachin got out in first over, my dad switched off TV. I didn't watch rest of the match. As my father is an ardent follower of cricket, it’s not a surprise. My mother doesn't know about cricket, but whenever I seek her permission to watch cricket she would tell me to turn off TV after Sachin got out. This was the habit in my home, till I took some control over remote. I am addicted to boost, I guess you all know the reason. Till Now, I won't drink coffee or tea, unless I was forced by relatives when I visit their home. Whenever Sachin scored century, next day morning I used to buy all newspapers and cut his picture and stick in the notebooks. In my school, majority of them were Sachin fans, we'll fight for the tag “Sachin Tendulkar”. Most of them would say “I’m Sachin of our class”. Me and my best friend too fight for the tag, to put an end to this fight, we decided from that day I will be called as Sachin and he will be called as Tendulkar. That’s the impact his NAME had created. When I put any fight with my dad, I won't talk to him, though he tried to console me.  If we had fight during match days, he will come and ask me “What’s Sachin Score?”, I can't resist myself, I would narrate how Sachin got out, what are shots Sachin Played with actions. Even now when I think of those times, I can't control my smile. I earned many friends because of Sachin and whoever may be, I never hesitate to fight for Sachin. Sachin doesn't know about my existence. But, his presence gave many things to me. I got my precious and he's one of the reason for that.

sachin book collection

With his magic spells and outstanding fielding, he had won many matches for India. When opponent players built up a frustrating partnerships, Ganguly would give the ball to Sachin and the magician spin the ball to turn the match in our way. His sharp direct hits and stunning catches needs no mention. More than a cricketer, he’s one of the best human being. Anyone can take him as a role model. For children who have bigger aim in life, irrespective of the field, he’s the best example. At the tender age of 16, he demolished the best bowling attack of that time. For boys who wants to succeed in love, he made the girl seven years older than him, to love him. For youths, who wants to keep their family in good position, at that age he kept the trust of the whole nation. For married men, he set the example of how to love a family, despite busy schedule. For politicians, he adopted the village Puttamraju Kandriga in Andhra and made it a well-developed village with good infrastructure. Last but not the least, he respects his parents, that’s why he’s at place, where no one can touch his shadow.

google it and find GOD

I won't say he is the talented cricketer of his generation, because I had witnessed many players with great talent than him. Some people from pakistan hailed Afridi as god, some from sri lanka hails Sangakkara as god, some people following football saying messi as their god. Not to forgot, Sachin is the first sportsman to called as God, he started this legacy. But what he had and others lacked is the Almighty's Grace, that's the reason he achieved this God Status and some other may say that as a luck. Whatever maybe, he is always one step ahead of the rest.

At each stage of our life, we will have one goal/wish. In my childhood, I wished to be cricketer, few years later I wished to be a collector, and now I wish to be an eminent writer. One wish that remains constant as my love towards Sachin is to meet him before my lifetime. I may meet him when I go to heaven, but there I can't take photos and upload it in fb and keep that picture as my DP, who knows when Zuckerberg goes to heaven, he may develop one as fb in there too ;). Jokes apart, one day definitely I'll meet Sachin and will take photo with him and preserve that rest of my life.

Always a proud Sachinist.

Keep Smiling :) Stay blessed :)

My Hostel Life

Upcoming days will be the hardest for engineering students who started their UG in 2011. Pursuing engineering itself a hardest thing but I would say after completing the final exams, leaving college and vacating the hostel, is the most hardest and it will create a vacuum in your heart.

Many of my friends told me that they didn’t had best moments in college and it won't come like school life. I too agree, nothing can be like school life and school friends. But, when it comes to enjoyment & immeasurable happiness I would certainly go with Hostel Life. Except food, you can’t find any faults here. Nothing can be 100 percent perfect.

Thought to say many things about Hostel life and prepared a list in a sequence. Mean time heard an audio of “Araverkaadu by Prabakaran Natraj”, in his own style he described hostel life beautifully. I recommend all hostellates to hear the audio

( Audio Download link: https://ec-media.sndcdn.com/uXvbhLEf76cP.128.mp3?f10880d39085a94a0418a7ef69b03d522cd6dfee9399eeb9a522029c6afbb938b0f053f59c915af1755f36d2914604bc048a4b7246aae08b161b3adefdb8b19ce170558846 ). Worth hearing !

My First Year Room

I don't want to sound like a broken tape. So, I just wish to confess about my hostel life. Everyone out there knows about me, they can find out whether am lying or not.

Old Hostel Mess

My first year in hostel is the best. Had best roommates and environment. Due to my faults, I missed them and will feel for it ever (stopped eating chips for few days after that incident). In second year, new hostel, new roommates, new environment but I didn’t had my cup of tea there. I don't know whether mistakes are mine or not, it happened. I know I had hurt many of them, at those times I was left with no other option than vengeance. Though I want to mention few things particularly, my heart says me to do reverse, just to avoid controversies. That’s the point in my life, I started to analyse myself and managed to right most of my faults. It’s precious for me, I had learnt many things, it changed me and helped to shed my “angry young man“ tag. Thanks to all faults, done by me and others, that helped me to transform as a better person. If someone patted on my back for acting like matured, full credits goes to my hostel life. Then comes the final year, felt like a Lion in its den. We can have two kind of happiness. One is enjoying by ourselves. Second one is by seeing others enjoyment. Most of the times, I prefer second one due to certain principles I’m following. Believe it or not, damn happily lived.

We can cherish on our happy moments for long period, but  some moments needs to be settled down sooner and shouldn't carry with us long time. These things doesn't mean that, I wasn't enjoying my hostel life. Even the most happiest person in the world will also had some patches of sadness in his life. Instead of telling, we did that, we went there, blah blah blah.. i felt telling how hostel life changed me will be a great compliment for the time I spent in hostel.

If the place which is filled with happiness and full of angels to make us happy is said as heaven, then I will say I lived in heaven for four years. Initially, I said I don't wanna sound like a broken tape by repeating the same things, but I failed, only thing coming in my mind is "will miss my hostel life to the core", it's really hard to get some words. 

Doesn't know how to conclude, definitely will pray for all you guys to reach greater heights in life.

Keep Smiling :) Stay Blessed :)

Tear Filled Eyes

Thought it'll be just another day in my diary. But, it turned out to be the most memorable day for all of us. It’s around 3 pm after completing all our works, I have been asked to initiate the proceedings. I don't know what to talk. Simply stood in front of my class. After gathering some words, started talking. Slowly got a bit emotional, tears filled my eyes. As I don't wanna cry in front everyone, stopped my speech in couple of minutes after proposing the idea of having get together at least once in a year. Once I got down, one after another occupied the stage and talked about their college life and friends circle.

I slowly started to think about how I started my college life. After completing the inauguration function, my parents left me in hostel and I was standing with tear filled eyes and waving them see you. From day one to last working day, we have shown college what we are capable of, made everyone jealous of RIOGA’12 and I don't wish to talk about what happened in next years. Went to every problem, without knowing what the problem was, only to show our unity. Fast mode walk to protect ID card, ecampus, attendance, quadrangle sights, our KG Force, security whistles, camera threats, aptitude training, record works, placements, projects and many more. Side by side, everything passed like a flash, while hearing my friends’ speech.

Some of them moved and melted me specially Niranjan, Deepak, Jairam, they spoke their heart out, Kuralarasun too. Not only with Kural, I promise that surely I’ll will be in touch with all of you and disturb you guys by sending my blog post links and will torture to read it. Have to mention one thing here, if someone says my writing is good, the whole credit goes to my school friends. Except my sister, no one knows in my family about my capability of writing blogs, stories, and verses. Without my friends, I’m just of mirage of myself. So guys, if I goes next level, your role will play a major part in it.

My college life won’t get over if I didn't mention three of them. Firstly Mech B boys, for their continuous love and support, though I was not with them for past three years. Next, my class advisors, teaching and non-teaching staffs, lab technicians. There may be some misunderstanding between us, but we can’t ignore the fact that they supported us in one way or another. Finally, wanna say a big thanks to my team “Team Beyond” for their love from day one to till now. Will miss you all.

Simply in two lines, “My college life started with tear filled eyes for missing my family and ended with the same tear filled eyes by thinking of missing you all”

Till now, I shared something about my college life and there is one more world, where I enjoyed thoroughly and emotionally attached. May be some of them didn't enjoy their college life, but I can proudly say each and every one had their best days here. That’s our Hostel Life. Will come with fresh post about my Hostel Life Experience.

I have attached the link of the song named “Vaada nanba” made by my friends. Please do hear it and support us. Finally, I wish to thank Arun Prassana Raja for his memorable work and Christopher Charles for making the evening so special. Miss you all, seems like ordinary word to express. Anyhow I have to say, “Miss you ALL buddies”.

Audio Link: https://soundcloud.com/naveen-parasuram-1/engo-irunthu-ingae-vanthomae

Keep Smiling :) Stay blessed :)

Me Too a Virtuous Villain

Thought to write some interesting things, but ended with something personal. Asked some of my friends, whether to post this or not, as it goes emotional. Couple of them enquired about  my condition and then, there's is one person, who didn't care about the content and just appreciated for portraying what I thought/felt in a clear manner. That gave me a gut to post this and if I you felt I had wasted your time, early apologizes.One more reason for publishing this blog is during my 80's, it will be funny to recollect how I was in my early 20’s.

Don’t know what happened, for past few days I'm feeling like sinking. It’s never too late to find me back, but to find, the price I have to pay may be something large. If I tried I can live without those things, but not myself. Also am not that mad to lose something equally important and get myself back. During these sort of situations, I wish to have a time machine, to place myself one year back. Just bewildered. Last time, I wished to have time machine for writing my 12^th exams once again.

Everyone knows am a short temper, only when they tease my favourites. But now a days, getting anger, irritated, behaving like childish for silly reasons. Childish may not be the apt word, but I don't know, how to portray me in best possible way. Thinking of unnecessary things and getting worry over those issues, weren't in my diary. However I'm getting used to that. It’s not that am I won't lie. I too but only to prank my friends. On other issues, I never play or lie to anyone, since it may hurt their feelings. Now a days, lying to my close ones becomes a habit, for my beneficiary so that they won’t get disappointed.

When I rewind, the people would say some nice qualities defines me. I can feel that am losing those one by one. Staring at mirror and seeing how I have transformed, is worse and acting to others like being normal, is far worse. While some of them thinking me as benevolent, the truth is just opposite. I didn't say I am that much bad, fearing that I may change. Those were the days, where my friends come with their problems, ask my suggestions to overcome it. But these days, I stand solitary by losing my way.

While thinking about all my negatives, at somewhere, at some corner, realized at least I can identify my flaws, feeling shame on myself, and thinking how it will affect others. There are some others, who doesn’t even bother a penny on others. Also there are people, who are far better and living like a Buddha/Jesus/Teresa even these days. It’s a human tendency to look upon people who are imperfect, when we are not that Perfect. It's not am the only one going through this phase, I expressed and others didn't.

Finally, I consoled myself, “Don't worry Parasu, a part of you is still good. You will find a way to get rid of these things and discover yourself back”

Title Courtesy: Kamal Haasan Sir. (Virtuous Villain - Uthama Villain)

Only line came to my mind while writing " Neenga nallavara ?, ila kettavara ?"

Keep Smiling :) Try to be true to everyone :)

Days in Velayudhampalayam

I would like to share one of the episode from my life. Who knows, this may be the first stepping stone for my autobiography ;)

Like every engineering student, I too need to do my final year project. To be frank, I had no other choice. Where on the earth, I can go other than project centres. Many of my friends planned to do their project in Industry. So we too tried and with the help of my friend's relative, got the opportunity to do my project in TNPL, Karur.

Four batches from my college doing the project in TNPL. Some of my friends stayed in friend's home. We totally seven members shared a house in Velayudhampalayam, a small town near Karur, as we had to be there for a month. One day prior to the reporting time, we went to Karur. 

Initially I felt like a fish out of the water, as we had water problem for both drinking and bathing. Though I was staying in hostel for past three years, I didn't faced a situation similar to this. Contrary to my friends, I am a bit reserved character, so initially I felt like out of my element. But later on, found my feet's there and had many boyish funs.

I had visited my grandpa's home for vacation, but that doesn't even longs for 10 days. This is the first time am staying in a rural place for a month.

Beyond my thoughts, I lived the life of Riley. Starting from bathing to sleeping, we made use of the every resource available. First time ever, went to night show for movie. Felt the night breeze and chillness, while moving in bike (triples) at 2am. Tried to reunite my friend with his lover. Played cards till when we felt to sleep. Still the night walk we had at 3 am remains fresh. First time bathed in river and had the time of my life there. Fishing becomes the part of our life. Visited Lord Murugan temple for "Thaipusam" festival and got the opportunity to pull the temple car. Captured awesome sceneries from top of the mountain. Went to friends home and had heavy lunch couple of times. Also I have to say, learnt few things regarding project. Got the industrial exposure and came to know how the works will be done in an organization.

In between all these enjoyments, also experienced few more things. One day, I went to temple near the place where I stayed. An old man, enquired about the purpose of our visit and blessed us. I had visited many new temples in Coimbatore, no one had ever bothered me. Enquiring about us doesn't a matter, as everyone would be curious to know about the new people in their locale. But an unknown old man blessed us in the same society, where many others are waiting to see when our rivals will fall down.

We have to walk nearly 300-400 meters to have food in good hotel. Whenever I was indolence, I used to go to a street side hotel, where Paniyaram available. I paid the regular visit, so developed a good bond with the lady who running the shop. One evening, when I went to have food only 10 paniyaram available, and it was bought by someone else. She asked me to wait for some time, so that she will cook more paniyaram. At that time, landlord of the shop came and asked her to parcel paniyaram. She said that, first she will parcel for me and then only for him. She need not have to say like that. If she asked, I will wait for some more time. There are some shopkeepers, who will make us to wait, and keep doing things for their regular customer. This lady at the other side, made her landlord wait, only reason was he came after me. People out there don't show any priority, that sounds good to me. This is one more quality, I found in them.

There was also dead happened near the house we stayed. Right from morning to evening, the street was filled with peoples. Speakers were kept all over the place and continuously they played songs. This is the rare scene to see in our city side. Many people won't attend the death scenario, as they have to bath after coming from there. Life is going like this in our area.

These are small small habits that are counting worms. I felt these sorts of humanities are dying with our previous generation. Don't know what to blame or whom to blame, but ours and upcoming generation have to learn the morale of life from our predecessors.

There are many more things, I wanna share, but don't know how many of them will read till this. Atleast I want everyone who are reading, to learn what life teaching to you rather than getting confused with those stuffs. Not only I enjoyed the most but also learnt various lessons to be the better person from where I am.

Keep Smiling :) Stay blessed :)